Despite the above quote and the desire to be brave, this doesn’t look good! There are twice as many cons as pros.
- $4,000 raise
- Practice managing people
- Practice teaching
- Practice giving people feedback about their behavior plan implementation
- My opinions might be listened to more/ have more weight/ be better respected
- I can ensure the behavior plans for the kids in my class are implemented with as much fidelity as possible and reasonable
- I won’t feel inferior to Ashley anymore
- It looks good on my resume
- Stress because of increased responsibilities like lesson planning
- I might not be as good at teaching as Ashley. More than that, I might be bad at it! Therefore, I’ll look inept and stupid. Even worse, everyone will realize I’m unintelligent, inferior, and simply not good at my current job.
- I’ll never believe I deserve it because my boss refused to do interviews because of me. She wanted to hire me in June, but everyone else thought Ashley was better after her interview. As a result, she didn’t conduct interviews and just gave me the job.
- Lesson planning will take time. Knowing me, it will take lots of time (Ex. I planned lessons on Thanksgiving last year while I was a temporary classroom supervisor)
- I’ll feel responsible if the paraprofessionals in my room mess up implementation of plans or forget to fill out IEP data.
- I’ll have to wake up earlier
- Lesson planning is really hard when you have no idea what you’re doing! Incorporating state standards, etc. seems overwhelming.
- Plus, I’ll feel the need to make it interesting. I might take it personally (meaning, I did not do a good enough job making it fun and interesting) when kids have behaviors during my class.
- The way the kids’ academics are structured by “grade level” will mean I’m never satisfied with how hard it is for the kids (either too hard or not hard enough).
- A $4,000 raise isn’t that much of a pro because I’m a pathetic human being and don’t actually pay for most things (Ex. Rent)
- Parent-Teacher conferences
- I’ll be stuck with the same 3 or 4 kids forever, or at least, for many, many months, since we seem to switch up groups twice a year. I suppose I’m with the same 4 kids now, but I like working with those 4 kids the best! I’ll be stuck with kids I find boring.
- I know I’m good at my job. I’m secure in my worth compared to other people with my job. I might be the worst classroom supervisor!
- I won’t be able to be second on a kid to gain indirect experience hours
- I’ll have to teach topics I don’t really know much about. I don’t actually want to teach these subjects. I enjoy teaching reading and math, but that is it. I’m mad at myself for agreeing to let Ashley teach Math and I’d teach Science and History.
- I’ll be judged by higher standards as an employee and I might not meet those standards, which has a negative effect on my employment
- My boss won’t think well of me if I try this and crash and burn and have to ask to step-down. She might refuse to write a later letter of recommendation