I’m trying my hand at online dating again. I haven’t met anyone IRL yet, but I’m nervous because any relationship threatens my eating disorder. I’m reminding myself my eating disorder will ensure I am lonely. I can try to build a life and if it doesn’t work out I can always go back to starving myself better than everyone around me in order to boost my self-esteem.
Masochist Musings
Masochist Musings 
I really hope you can do this x
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Thank you. Me too.
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Iv had food issues. It was a stress related reaction. So I get it. Much love x
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You say “had”, is it better now? If so, what changed?
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When I still with my ex I was 6 mth preg. I had my son alone no support from ex. I had always been in control of my life. I felt I had lost that. I think food became my control. I saw a counsellor for a while. Made some life changes ie gave up my career so I could be with my son. It took a while but I got there. Every now and then I have a passing moment. But it passes
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