Dating and Eating Disorders

I’m trying my hand at online dating again. I haven’t met anyone IRL yet, but I’m nervous because any relationship threatens my eating disorder. I’m reminding myself my eating disorder will ensure I am lonely. I can try to build a life and if it doesn’t work out I can always go back to starving myself better than everyone around me in order to boost my self-esteem.

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Vacation

I’m leaving for a week long family vacation. It’ll be fun, but stressful because of the ED. I’m officially no longer weight restored (I weigh less than the weight I had to gain to during inpatient treatment at 17 years old), but I doubt that will last through the week because we have huge meals and candy and snacks everywhere.

See you in a week!